It’s 6am, I bounce out of bed, head to the kitchen and make a cup of warm water with a slice of lemon, find my headphones and sit on the floor with some Mahler playing in my ears as I meditate. I feel great from a good nights sleep, it’s early on Monday morning but I have no dread of going back to work after the weekend. In the fridge is my fruit for breakfast and a lunch of oven baked veggies in Middle-Eastern spices ready to go on the bus with me. As I’m sitting there with the sun from a beautiful blue sky breaking above London beginning to filter through the window I am overcome by how much my life has changed in a fortnight.
Regular readers will remember that I recently met Alison Canavan and decided I was going to try her recommendations prior to doing an interview with her (read that here) and I have to say that while it feels strange the changes have been very good. Just two weeks ago my morning routine was fall out of bed after a terrible night, shower, listen to obnoxiously aggressive hip hop or rock to get my body and mind awake then run to the bus getting a caffeine fix on the way. I work two careers right now and life was a ball of stress, constant running around and difficulties, I felt burnt out, run down and pretty much horrified at another three to four decades of this feeling before a retirement I still don’t plan for.
Well that feeling has gone, the mixing of a healthier lifestyle as well as adding in the mindfulness has lifted so much of the millstone hanging over me, only last week a colleague said how much more relaxed and calm I was, given no better evidence than something they thought would result in me losing my shit simply being responded to with a lets see what we can do to get this sorted.
The transition has been difficult and awkward at times, it takes me forever to shop as I’m still having to focus on removing ingrained dietary habits, my body sort of went into shock for a few days with the sudden removal of junk and crap, it’s still a bit what the feck is this thats happening and there are are times when old emotional habits come back. I find that as it’s not second nature to take that step back and refocus I do at times head into the old actions, the frustration, anger or negativity that is so easy to summon, though I’m more aware of the cycles and stepping back from them, I may have told my boss last week that I’d be back in 10 minutes as “I’m going to meditate the shit out of this til I feel better”.
Anyway, its all going rather well so thank you Alison for all the help & advice, I’m a believer!!!